July 20th was birthday. Aging is a positively difficult topic. Facinating and fraught with contradition. Many think that NOT aging is the ticket. I don’t believe that at all. Although I would agree that aging is not going to be easy, but then again life is difficult at all stages.
My life is clipping right along at a smooth and manageable pace. It’s funny that I’ve come to compartmentalize or demarcate my life into pre-sailing trip and post-sailing trip. It appears to be the benchmark that I measure many factors in my life…ie happiness and direction. The benchmark is not my career in the U.S. Coast Guard which demonstrates the emotional impact that sailing trip had on me. In any event, I left on that Journey at 40 years old and now hear I am at 47 getting ready to knock on the 50 year old door.
A birthday is always at great time to reflect. It seems that a birthday can cause a gurgling up of regret. I’ve few regrets and the yogi in me chalks up these things as lesson that needed to be learned to move forward. Maybe more of what I’m feeling is not regret but time slipping. Kind of “I’ve got a lot of shit to do and time is slipping” feeling.
This year’s celebration was spent in Lake Tahoe, California on the west shore with my girlfriend.
I had been stationed at Tahoe City while in the Coast Guard in the 90’s for nearly 4 years. This was the first time I’ve been back in the summertime. So beautiful, but the lake water level was super low. The Coast Guard boats can’t moor at the pier at the Station due to depth issues.
So it was a quick trip to the lake. We arrived to bright sunshine and warm temperatures…..and then a summer storm (much needed might I add) came rolling in. Full on thunder and lightning.
The sky opened up and Barri and I ran for cover. I’m super grateful that my girlfriend took me to the lake for my 47th birthday!
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